anxious and excited (in this order)
if there’s a thin line between being a young adult and being a fully pledged one, then i have officially crossed it. just recently i purchased what will be my future home. and for the next four years, i will be (in this order) both anxious (in a good way) and excited.
it has always been my regret not purchasing something like this way back 2008. I kept thinking that had i invested earlier, my home is about halfway done by now.
now though, i’m glad i waited for her. it would’ve been my loss if i missed having this experience with her. from viewing models, to lunch meetings, to opening accounts (despite you not wanting to go to banks), and up to issuing checks that are post dated up until 2014, all of them are special for so many reasons. but truthfully, just knowing she was there and will always be there all the way is more than enough.
part of me is scared. i have never taken any responsibility as big as this. as early as now i am beginning to feel the implications of this purchase. my lifestyle and salary (whether here or with a new employer) will have to adapt soon. this fear though, is a reminder why i’m lucky. it will be times like this i will feel most blessed because i have someone to share it with. this fear is a reminder why i will never take her for granted.
there are countless things and secrets to write about but i will spare the details of this future memory, words will never be enough to describe it anyway. all that matters is that this is a step closer to a lifetime with you.
